MIKAELLE

Yesterday, I went to court so I could decide and tell the judge who I wanted to stay with once again. The judge didn't ask me any questions whatsoever which I find extremely weird, she just sat there on her perky ass, with a dumb ass voice and smile. So the thing is that I told the judge that I wanted to stay with my dad and not live with my mom for the following reasons: physical pain; she would beat me constantly, emotional pain; she would constantly put me down like saying that I was worthless and that she was ashamed of calling me her daughter. The emotional pain got so severe that I tried to commit suicide because I thought it was the only answer in which I started to think that I wasn't even worth dying so I started to inflict self-harm. My mother ended up brain washing me, making me hate my father which I love very much. My mother also made me lie various times to psychologist and to a judge just so she could get custody to make my dad suffer. It's gotten to a point where all of this is just used to hurt my dad. She now has been using my sister to get to me so I would change my mind to go back and live with her since I haven't seen them in 2 years and haven't had contact in a whole year. I really don't want to go live with my mom because she's just gonna hurt me. I had told everything to the judge and yet here I am, here with mom getting ready to leave. I really find the decision unfair since I have said everything there is to say and that it's clear who I'm better off with.